The Key to Change...Is to Let Go of Fear

Another Chapter in my life commences. Another rung in this ladder, another script in this play called life. Tomorrow is never promised today but somehow someway I know my tomorrow would be nothing less than fine.

If there were one recurring question that crosses my path it would be: How do I just change my environment? How am I able to pick up leave and move to places foreign to me. Don’t I ever get scared of the thought of novelty? Leaving friends, comfort and certainty behind?

I don’t think I’ve ever given the right answer to those who question me ‘cos I always still see the confusion in their faces when I say “I don’t know, I just do.” I’ve pondered upon this question myself. Someone has diagnosed my problem as “a fear of commitment”. I found my diagnosis entertaining, as I wasn’t sure what exactly the commitment was. I doubt I’ve ever been afraid of being committed to any of my past apartments, cities or countries in which I’ve lived. Lastly, I doubt it’s a fear of commitment to the friends with which I have developed bonds in whatever city as friendship definitely transcends geographical boundaries.

One thing I am certain of is that there is nothing wrong with change, if it is in the right direction. All the voluntary changes that have happened in my life have been calculated. I do not just pick up and leave. I weigh the pros and cons and also consult the One who orders my steps. I guess that would be the perfect answer to the question that I often hear.

So as I leave certainty for the uncertainty once more…I am trying to make sense of what it is that motivates me to move. Just up and leave. Its not that I do not have the concerns any responsible adult has. I have just come to realize that all the changes in my life have been at the right time. Like lovers who have become strangers yet are able to amicably part ways. Sometimes you just know when the time is right to move on in search for a challenge that will add to the substance of who you are.

Thus, as I trudge along, once more, doubt and fear elude me as I do not fear the unknown. I embrace the unknown ‘cos it makes my journey through life a little more interesting. Comfort in what you know is great but there is something quite boring about redundancy.

Alas, it seems as though this move might just be the last leg ‘cos I’m going home. Don’t get me wrong…minor changes will arise as life is in constant flux but in terms of an immense change, I believe this might be the final one and I’m embracing it.
Saying goodbye to the things and people you cherish is ever so hard. My life for the past ten years to a certain degree define me and have transformed me into the person I am today. Lasting relationships have been formed, previous relationships have been strengthened and through it all knowledge has been acquired. Not to sound like a Destiny's Child ballad but I’m older and wiser. It’s been a wild and exhilarating ride and I wouldn’t trade any part of my past decade.

In The Spirit of being older and wiser, I have learned that there is nothing sexier than a woman in a well-worn suit. And if there is one thing I am thankful for...it is the ability to buy my own suits moi-meme sans any "grown up" putting me in an old-school costume pretending to be a suit :-)

Stay tuned for my favorite professional looks...

Mat 6:34 - Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.